• Atisha Sooklall

Family is everything

They say that distance makes the heart grow fonder, and true to the word, it does…

The fear of the unknown is scary, it tugs away at the strings of your heart, slowly, day by day, tightening, leaving you struggling to breathe with a sharp pain at the pit of your stomach. It’s a worry that eats away and if given into, will consume you before you know it. I can speak so boldly about such fears because I have experienced it myself. Being miles away from our parents and grandparents knowing that anything can happen at any time is a fear that is constantly on my mind. Even when I’m asleep, my subconscious reminds me of this, as my dreams quickly turn into nightmares and I wake up crying.

My nightmare came true when my grandmother past away in May. It felt like someone pushed a knife through my chest and made sure it stayed there. I was devastated, to say the least. I was worried about my mum. I am her rock, her pillar of strength, and I couldn’t be there to support her in her time of need. I tried my best and did what I could, but I still feel like it wasn’t enough. And since then the worry has gotten worse. My biggest concern is my grandfather who I miss so much. He is old and was recently hospitalized. He is back at home now, but my heart aches for him every day…

It’s been only five months since we left South Africa and yet it feels like ages have passed. Time has gone by so fast and with COVID and the lockdown, time went by even faster. Our original plan was to return to South Africa for a week or two and visit our families in June 2020, so subconsciously we knew that we would see everyone soon. Unfortunately for us, COVID had other plans. With the travel bans and flight cancellations, we had no choice but to stay put. And with no indicator on when COVID will end, traveling out of the USA is basically impossible. So here we are not knowing when we will see our families again.

I am writing this story with tears in my eyes as my heart weeps for my family. The whole reason I started this blog was to share my experience, so here I am doing just that. Unfortunately not every experience can be positive, but its times like this that teach us the toughest lessons and prepare us for the storms that we still have to face.

Don’t let worry consume you! Easier said than done, I know… but take it one day at a time. Don’t put anything off, life is short and time waits for no one. If you miss someone, call them, if you can visit them, do it! And lastly, don’t take your family or the time you have with them for granted.

Catch up soon, another day with another story…

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